That was a tremendously deep sleep... I feel like I've awaken from another lifetime. Reality; it seemed like the dream. For just a second, I was an old man full of the wisdom and character that comes from a long life lived out in full. But, just as the peace of my long lived life came upon me, it escaped my grasp. There and gone, like a shooting star across the night sky. And no easier to keep hold of at that. The me I always hoped to become, and somehow already was, fell away. In that satisfied old man's place my former yet familiar self came back into focus. And with him the all to real foolishness, fear, pride, and uncertainty. I want back the tenderness, joy, and peace of the man I was in that other lifetime. That man I desire to one day be. In part, I want sleep to return to me so that I may transform back. However, I'm reluctantly resisting. If I want to truly become him, I must
dedicate and discipline myself in this world, rather than grasp at strings in a world that never really was to begin with.
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